Sick

Every pore in my body is now solely devoted to producing mucus.

I am at work surfing craigslist and infecting my co-workers.

More of the same

It’s been just over six months since I've posted. Longer if your looking for something with substance. Ostensibly it’s because I wanted to be anonymous and I felt my cover had been blown.

But really I stopped posting because I am a coward and I didn’t think I could handle the inevitable confrontation. To be perfectly clear, I still don’t want to deal with it. I’ve come around 360 degrees and I just don’t want to waste the time giving a shit about something that is purely potential.

If 2007 was the year of personal growth and completion (and doubt, and fear, and lust, and ambition, etc.) than surely 2008 was the year where I became complacent. I grew comfortable in the daily routine and stagnated as a result.

So why am I getting back up on the soapbox? For one thing, I’m pretty certain no one reads this. For another, I’m being forced outside of my comfort zone and I need some place to vent and record my thought process.

Here it is, and here I go.

About a Month

Is how long it took me to figure out I'm not anonymous anymore.

I'm not sure how, and I'm not sure why. I just know that now I wont be able to be as honest with myself as I want to be.

So I'm starting again. Elsewhere.

Thanks for reading, and who knows, you may run into my bitter self at some other point.

And another thing..

The human body has 1.232 gallons (5.6 liters) of blood.

The most expensive (lets call it 'high octane') blood is about $100 - $130 per unit. Thats a pint of almost pure type - O red blood cells, right out of the body. Its untested for blood critters at this point, so if you dont want to catch the HIV from your blood transfusion the price goes up.

(8 pints / gallon) X ($115 / pint) = $920 / gallon

The most expensive gas in the nation = Just about pushing $4 / gallon

So I was right about the whole 'getting screwed on the exchange rate'. We have thousands of orphans, homeless, and Democrats in this country. Cant we set up some sort of oil - for - blood industry and just pull the fuck out of the middle east now? The Iraq thing was fun for a while but now it is at best inefficient, and at worst a criminal misuse of thousand soldiers' blood.

Word Mincer

No blood for oil? Fuck you very much, but I'm all for cheap oil, thanks. I'm just a bit confused about the exchange rate.. we've lost what, 4k souldiers in the 5 plus years of 'The War for Oil'? And the gas prices.. they are where now?

Oh, right. They went up some twenty motherfucking percent.

I'm not even going to start on how all of this impacts the general cost of goods. Suffice to say, most everything you buy has oil (direct, or bi-product) value added somewhere during its production.

The national deficit? Yeah, thats at 9.3 trillion dollars. That piece of shit grew from 5.8 trillion to 9.3 trillion in just eight ass raping years. To put it into perspective, every man woman and child in the U.S of A owe around $30K to all sorts of financial entities (fun fact: 22.7% of that is owed to international interests! Weee!).

Its getting to the point where we will no longer be able to pay the interest on the debt. And that is utterly terrifying.

If the United States were an individual, we would have already declared bankruptcy. Big middle finger up to all of the assholes with the IOUs. Don't expect the back rent.

Mandatory cost of living decrease and credit counciling for all 300 million of us.

Or maybe we can just stop spending so much goddamn money on a war that has no end in sight, and no potential monetary incentive what-so-ever.

Knowing When To Say When

I've never been a very good writer. For the most part I try to splash my thoughts as quickly as possible on the page, than edit them into something resembling 'readable'. That makes me more of a re-writer than a writer.

Along that twisty train of though, I'm not really sure how to say that I'm in the midst of a personal quandary, but decisions are going to be made in the next several months that will likely impact my life for decades. And none of the decisions are standalone: they each impact one another like some fucked up partial differential system of equations. In other words: I am a mess.

Naturally, as with most issues in my life, the biggest one has to do with Woman. I'm happy, I think shes happy. We're pretty happy. Its been three years of pretty happy. Its been so fucking happy that her parents, my parents, her cousins, friends, and random bar acquaintances are asking me when I'm going to 'pop the question'.

There are problems of course. For starters, my raging libido and her inability to give a shit about it. I dont want my life to be the cliched married guy that cant get sex from his wife. And I should mention that the only way I'm willing to separate a marriage is with a firearm.

But now we are thinking of moving (read: I need to get the hell out of Santa Barbara), and I'm pretty sure there needs to be more of a commitment than 'Yes babe, I'm pretty sure I'll marry you soon'. I've been using that one too long and its become ineffective.

Anyway, I'm not 'popping' anything until I get laid in a timely manner.

Electability

After the interview with Obama's preacher of two decades, Rev. Jeremiah Wright, it appears that in a countrywide poll seventy five percent of republicans and fifty percent of the democrats said they were far less likely to vote for Obama.

"Wright, who retired recently, has railed that the September 11 attacks were retribution for U.S. foreign policy, called the U.S. government the source of the AIDS virus and expressed anger over what he called racist America." Source: Rueters.

I dont think anyone cares what the Republicans think (75% less likely to vote for Obabma.. what is 75% of zero anyway?). As for the democrats, they look like thier just about ready to implode.

Thats what you get for having two front runners that are, for all intents and purposes, completely unelectable. No matter how uplifting their message is, no matter how great their governing skills, America is not ready for a woman president. Or a black president who's middle name is 'Hussein'. Its just not going to happen, and for the same reason that my personal hero Ron Paul couldn't happen.